Friday, September 28, 2007
If you get up tomorrow, say, around 9... I will have been running for nearly 5 hours. I'm not going to start thinking about it though. Maybe I should just go to bed...
*** You must run this mile 24 times.
Sunday, September 16, 2007
8:00PM: I missed the red carpet because of football. I really think it's irritating when cartoon characters are on award shows giving out awards or performing. The audience doesn't seem to think it's very funny either.
8:03PM: Todd says, "The audience is bored to tears."
8:07PM: Ryan Seacrest... ugh. Todd says, "This is terrible." I wonder if Seacrest's tie is made out of licorice. I don't like licorice.
8:13PM: Ray Romano was certainly better than Ryan Seacrest, but he cut out for a minute due to technical difficulties. Stupid Fox. Entourage is good, but I would have preferred to see Rainn Wilson win Best Supporting Actor in a Comedy...
8:17PM: I think America Ferrera is beautiful and I don't care that she's not stick-figure thin. ARG! I wanted Hiro to win Best Supporting Actor in a Drama!!! Grr, I hope my shows win something, dammit. They're good shows!!!
8:23PM: Jenna Fisher or Elizabeth Perkins??? Choices.
8:24PM: The answer is... neither. ARG! Am I the only one that doesn't think My name is Earl is that great and is just something to watch while you're waiting for The Office to be on??
8:37PM: The montage of topical one-liners was, um... random. But we got to see Jon and Stephen, so yay!
8:41PM: Writing on a variety show... YAY! What I've been waiting for... NOOOOOOOOOOOO! Not Conan!! Jon or Stephen.!! Hello???????? Grrr.
8:54PM: Another loss for Jon/Stephen. Todd says, "It's amazing that Tony Bennett is still alive. But, he needs to learn a new song."
8:58PM: Ryan Seacrest again... haven't seen him in 40 minutes. He sucks.
9:13PM: I'm confused. They just announced like 3 sets of nominees and then only 1 winner. I know that it's not just that I have had 3/4 of a bottle of wine since the show started... something weird is going on. NPH wouldn't do that!
9:23PM: YAY YAY YAY!!! JON JON JON JON!
9:47PM: UGH... Horrible. Why the musical act and then bringing out the cast of The Sopranos?? Are we the only ones who think this was a dumb waste of time? At least I got some work done.
9:55PM: Yay, Lewis Black is on! Best part of the show thus far.
10:20PM: Hooray, The office won something. Thank goodness.
10:48PM: Well, I got to see Steve Carrell pseudo-win, and I got to see Jon & Stephen present an award, and I got to see the dead-people montage, so I guess I've seen it all, haven't I? I'm done with blogging and going to bed soon...
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
The new Kenny Chesney album came out yesterday. At first, I hated it, then I decided it was ok, then this morning I realized that there's a few really really good songs on it. Here's the one that almost made me cry and is probably the best song off the album...
Move on like a sinner's prayer,
Letting go like a levy breaks,
Walk away as if I don't care,
Learn to shoulder my mistakes.
I'm built to fade like your favorite song,
Getting reckless when there's no need,
Laugh when your stories ramble on,
Break my heart but it won't bleed.
My only friends are pirates,
It's just who I am.
I'm better as a memory than as your man.
I'm never sure when the truth won't do.
I'm pretty good on a lonely night.
I move on the way a storm blows through.
I never stay but then again I might.
I struggle sometimes to find the words.
I'm always sure until I doubt.
I walk a line until it blurs,
Built walls too high to climb out.
I'm honest to a fault,
It's just who I am.
I'm better as a memory than as your man.
I see you leaning.
You're bound to fall.
I don't wanna be that mistake.
I'm just a dreamer, nothing more.
You should know it before it gets too late.
Cause goodbyes are like a roulette wheel,
You never know where they're gonna land.
First you're spinning then you're standing still,
Left holding a losing a hand,
But one day you're gonna find someone,
And right away you'll know it's true,
That all of your seeking's done.
It's just a part of the passing through.
Right there in that moment,
You'll finally understand,
That I was better as a memory than as your man.
Better as a memory than as your man.
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Sunday, September 9, 2007
...sigh. For Dave, on a day that isn't special anymore.
It’s hard to remember how it felt before
Now I found the love of my life
Passes things, get more comfortable
Everything is going right
And after all the obstacles
It’s good to see you now with someone else
And it’s such a miracle that you and me are still good friends
After all that we’ve been through
I know we’re cool
I know we’re cool
We used to think it was impossible
Now you call me by my new last name
Memories seem like so long ago
Time always kills the pain
Remember Harbor Boulevard
The dreaming days where the mess was made
Look how all the kids have grown, oh
We have changed but we’re still the same
After all that we’ve been through
I know we’re cool
I know we’re cool
Yeah, I know we’re cool
And I’ll be happy for you
If you can be happy for me
Circles and triangles
And now we’re hanging out with your new girlfriend
So far from where we’ve been
I know we’re cool
I know we’re cool
C-cool, I know we’re cool
I know we’re cool
Saturday, September 8, 2007
So, the alarm went off at (UGH) 3:30am. I was at the parking lot by about 4:30 and we started running at 4:45am. Yes, it was dark and early. Sunrise wasn't until about 6:45, so we had plenty of dark time. We started out going north and I was in the lead since I was the one with the light and no one wanted to run in the glow of my lamp. I was half asleep and not particularly social, getting pushed a little by Nancy & Tom, and wasn't paying attention. Sometime around mile 3 or 4, I looked around to find that the only people running with me were Tom, Kristy and Nancy (Nancy usually runs with Maria's group). I had no idea we'd left the rest of the group behind and if I did realize it, I would have slowed down.
I did feel like we were going pretty fast. We were going around 13:30-14 minute pace. Too fast. But I kept up with it anyway... peer pressure. It was gorgeous outside, though. There was just a little sliver of moon and the stars were bright and pretty and at one point around mile marker 6, there's a bridge and a barn in the distance. There was fog around the barn and the moon above looked so beautiful. Awesome.
So, my blisters were acting up. My usual ones from last year on my left pinky and next-to-pinky toes weren't too too bad, because I'd worn my toe tube for the first time this year, and I'd wrapped the pinky in a blister bandaid. There's another one that's been popping up lately on my left instep that I think is caused by the orthotics I wear. I'm too lazy to go to the podiatrist to get it looked at. I was worried because I had a long way to go and they were hurting before even the first water stop. I decided to make it my goal that I would make it back to Monkton after we turned around.
So, first water stop at Monkton (mile 7) and Karen's group and Todd's group (he was running with Andrea) showed up right afterwards. I'd gone through 2 bottles of Nuun and filled up, and ate the Saltines that I'd dropped off at the running store yesterday because lately I've been craving salt and not sugar during long runs. It was rough after the break, hard going up north. At last, we made it to White Hall where there was a second water stop. We were going to turn around at mile marker 11, but we realized that in order to get our full mileage in we'd have to go to Ashland at the end, so it seemed more appealing to turn around at half way between 11 and 12. So, that's what we did.
Back at White Hall again, we stopped for our second break. I was having trouble eating and I could barely drink. I was basically feeling pretty awful. Todd was at that water stop as well, and he headed on as we left.
We decided to play the movie game that I'd suggested earlier in the run. Basically, it's like six degrees - you name a person and a movie they were in. The next person picks another person that was in the same movie and then names another movie that they were in. And so on. This kept us occupied all the way back down to Monkton and the miles really went by fast. It was actually a lot of fun and helped me to get my mind off how much everything was hurting.
So, we made it back down to Monkton. Things had leveled off on the blister front, so I decided to head on. However, it was only about a half mile to 3/4 of a mile before I realized that I couldn't keep up with that pace we'd been running and I fell behind. I told the others to go on... I was feeling so bad. Nausea, a headache, legs and feet were hurting. The arthritis in my feet was so bad I couldn't stand it. I made it my goal to make it only to Sparks and then have someone pick me up. I switched to 1:1s for maybe 5 minutes, but I couldn't even manage that. I was feeling terrible.
So, I walked. I walked for a mile and a half. I was a mess for a while, I had no idea what mile marker I was at, I had no idea what was going on . It was weird. I would have liked to have walked it in, but I knew that if Sue and Debra caught up with me, I was either going to have to stop, since I didn't have a cell phone, or I was going to have to try and keep up with them. Trying to run again after walking 2-3 miles was going to be too rough, so I switched back to 1:1s and found it wasn't too bad after the first few minutes. Amazingly, I was keeping a 15 minute pace pretty much on the dot.
Brenda was on her bike on the trail, asking me how I was and I was letting her know that I was ok, but I cannot thank her enough for being out there - I really needed to know someone was keeping an eye on me.
Finally, I got to Sparks. There was a car that looked like Todd's car parked there and I know for certain that if it had been his, I would have gotten in and gone home and forgot about the rest of the run. But as long as Sue and Debra hadn't caught up with me, and since I was happy with my pace, I decided to press on and make my goal Phoenix. If I made it to Phoenix, I would have run 20.5 miles, which was very respectible. So, onward.
Some other people had passed... Bobby's group, Lori, some others, and I was telling them I was doing ok as long as Sue and Debra were behind me. Brenda told me she could call someone if I stopped at Phoenix. Phoenix came and I realized I was feeling pretty horrible, but I could make it another 1.5 miles to Paper mill. It was the point of no return - there were no cross streets between Phoenix and Paper Mill, so if I passed Phoenix I had to make it back, even if I walked it in. But, like I said, it was only a mile and half when I'd already gone 20.5.
I went on. It was hot and miserable and everything hurt. It's a weird way to describe it... everything hurt. I was hungry, but couldn't eat. I was forcing myself to drink. I managed to keep that 15 minute pace and Sue and Debra, Natalie and everyone caught up with me right at the Paper Mill parking lot.
I MADE IT. I FRICKIN' MADE IT. I MADE IT 22 MILES THAT I NEVER THOUGHT I'D FINISH. And I was positive at the end. As happy as I was for finishing the 2 marathons. It was a frickin' accomplishment. This was longer than any training run that I did last year. I ran the last part of it by myself when I hate running by myself and have so much trouble running alone.
Here's a crazy thing...
Today, I ran 22 miles in 5:41:46. That's a pace of 15:32. 26.2 at 15:32 is 6:47:18. I estimate that the water breaks were a total of 23 minutes, bringing my time to 6:24 for a marathon which is... my Disney marathon time.
I ran marathon pace today.
Weird. And if I had to, if I would have gotten a medal for doing it, I could have gone another 4.2 miles at that 15 minute pace doing 1:1s.
Not that it's any revelation that I can run a marathon in 6:24, and my goal is 6 hours this year, but somehow that still is really impressive.
Anyway, post-run, things are sore. I went home and Todd, who also had trouble during his run, had bought me a quarter pounder from McDonald's (did I mention he is the best guy ever?). Getting my shoes off was rough, my blister on my instep is bad. My joints in my feet are KILLING me, my legs are very sore. I'm definitely in the worst pain I've been in for training this year. I ate the McDonald's and took a shower and then tried to sleep but only managed to dose for 30 minutes or so.
I've sort of laid around all day and finally slept for about an hour and a half around 6 or 7pm.
I'm exhausted, but happy and proud.
Friday, September 7, 2007
It was this whole show bringing back past contestants and having them get on the scale. They would bring them out, looking all fit and fabulous, talk to them for a bit, show clips of them working out at home and whatever, and then they would say "Did you keep the weight off??" (the whole audience would yell this together) and then they'd get on the scale and be all happy when (surprise!) they had indeed kept the weight off. I found this show to be irritating. Why?
- First off, there's no point in acting like there is drama or suspense about whether or not they kept the weight off. Obviously, they did, since they're on the reunion show in the first place. Not to mention that we can PLAINLY see that they are still skinny. This is what I don't understand about weight and that magic number. Has anyone noticed that I share my weight all the time? It's because people can see by looking at me how much I weigh, I'm not fooling anyone.*
- Jillian Michaels wasn't on the show, but she's coming back this season supposedly.
- I HATE the way they portray people before they've lost the weight. Slow motion black and white style video of someone wearing clothes that don't fit, stuffing a burger into their mouth. Give me a frickin' break. I also hate the "I was so unhappy!! Now I'm so much more happy!" thing. Between 2001 and now, I hit my lowest weight in February/March 2006 and I can tell you for certain that it made absolutely no difference in my happiness. Once again, there's the media/television tying self-worth to weight and it's JUST NOT NECESSARY. Sure, you might feel better, look better, etc, but everything about your life does not rely on whether or not you are thin. If you're searching for happiness, bark up a different tree.
- They got rid of Caroline Rhea. I don't know why, I hope it was Caroline's choice. Any insight on this is welcome.
- Trainer Kim Lyons was on the show, and the new host (who wasn't skinny and wasn't chunky, but seemed frumpy in the dress she was wearing...) asked her what mistakes people make and Kim went on about Diet Soda and how it has caffeine and therefore you can't hydrate with it. This is crap. I get seriously irritated when an "expert" is on a show giving BS about something and people listen because they think she's right. More on this in a second.
So, about the caffeine thing... Yes, caffeine is a diuretic. However, the ratio of fluid to caffeine in sodas is enough that you are still getting hydrated from drinking a diet soda over water. What annoys me about telling people otherwise is that now there might be people who attempt to drink water or who try to drink something sugary like gatorade or juice instead. Of course, this is all fine except for the fact that there are people (myself included) who drink much more if they can drink something other than water. I do a lot better with Fruit 2-0 or Propel or Diet Soda than I do with plain water. Sure, water is the absolute best thing, but if you're going to be taking on tons of calories drinking juice or Gatorade or if you're not going to drink anything at all, then GO AHEAD AND DRINK THE DIET SODA. It's not hurting you. Seriously. Heck, I polished off a 32 oz diet Coke while I was typing this. For running, many of us often drink coffee before a run because, damn, we run early. I also have started trying Shot Bloks with caffeine added to them, because you know there's got to be something that will push me through those last 5 miles.
If you wanted to tell me that artificial sweeteners in diet soda might be an issue, I would be tempted to agree with you somewhat. It's tough to really know for certain. I do eat/drink plenty of artificial sweeteners and I do wonder what the affects of that are, but like I said, it's all a balance and hydration and lower calorie consumption is what is most important to me right now. You will hear some people go on about aspartame in particular. I take a lot of this with a grain of salt because it sounds so propaganda-like (I once read a website where someone basically said that aspartame causes pretty much every modern disease... sounds kinda far-fetched...). Still, I keep my eye out for actual evidence about Aspartame, Saccharin & Splenda. I don't have time to find links right now, but if anyone has anything really interesting (and from a reliable source) that they'd like to share, I'd like to see it. Sorry... I can't help but be skeptical when there's so much nonsense out there.
Ok, so that's the rant of the day. Back to work.
Google Answer on Caffeine & Hydration
*As a side note, I have a theory about this - you can't go wrong telling people your weight. There are only three options: a) you weigh exactly what people thought, in which case, what's wrong with that? b) you weigh more than what people thought, in which case, great, you carry your weight well. Good for you!! or, c) you weigh less than what people thought, which should be fine because now you've set them straight. That's my theory anyway. It's more about the fact that it's painfully obvious what I weigh by looking at me and that the number really doesn't mean all that much anyway...
Monday, September 3, 2007
Problems with myspace:
- They recently deleted my profile, for no good reason. At first I couldn't log in, then after a few days, my profile disappeared altogether. I recreated it, but I'm annoyed that I had about 70 friends and now I have to remember who they are and relocate them or have them relocate me. It's not easy to find them all. I've talked to their customer service, if for no other reason than to figure out what happened, but it's a slow process.
- I hate myspace profiles. I hate tacky backgrounds, flash and animated things, and music that plays automatically. I'm really tired of looking at about 90% of the crap that is out there. It's disorganized and annoying.
- I don't understand the whole "comment and have a conversation in your comments" thing. I've tried it, but in general, blogs make more sense to me.
- For some reason, when I visit myspace from home, it causes my router to drop. And it doesn't just drop my computer, it disconnects the entire network. The only way to fix it is to unplug the router and plug it back in. This is irritating and unwelcome to the one I share the network with.
Going off notice is the Nike GoKids program, since I have faith that they'll use better judgement next time.
Sunday, September 2, 2007
Just like Sandra, I love cyclists, I know people that are bikers, some that are swim/bike/runners ;) and some that just go out on the trail for fun once in a while. I like to think of those that are out on the trail as people that are in this with us, fighting heat and sun and exhaustion for hours at a time just like us runners. But sometimes... you guys get on my nerves.
First of all, when approaching a group of runners or walkers, pass on the LEFT SIDE, not the right. And shout "on your left" as you approach so that we know you're there. Trust me, after running 10+ miles, we are a little delirious and may not hear you. Tired of shouting? Get a bell or horn. Tired of all of us walkers/runners taking up the trail? Sorry, we get tired of bikers whizzing by us too fast and too close.
Now, I walk 1/3 of the time, I realize this. But the walkers that get on my nerves are those that are completely oblivious to my running. After 15+ miles, it becomes very difficult to turn or go around anyone. Please realize this. Please don't walk 4 and 5 abreast, complete with dog on a leash. And please don't stop abruptly in front of me. And please make sure that your kids, whether on foot or bike, don't run in front of me and stay out of my way.
When I am running on the road, and there is a road which I have to cross and I'm waiting for you to pass, if you are the only car around, just go. Don't wait and waive me across. Everyone will get through faster if you just go. I hate hobbling across the road in front of a car whose driver is watching me cross the street. And when you do decide to just go, please hurry up!!
Also, please don't look at me as you drive past. Never seen a person running before?
And about your parked cars... don't park them across the sidewalk!! I understand if you're having a party and it's a one-time thing or something, but there are houses that consistently have cars parked across the sidewalk and it is IRRITATING.
While we're at it, don't block the sidewalks with your basketball hoops either. Basketball hoops are evil things anyway (you can put them up ANYWHERE and then I have to listen to the boom boom boom of a basketball bouncing on a constant basis), but to just leave them across the sidewalk is frickin' inconsiderate.
Don't leave toys in the sidewalk either. Have your kids pick them up... who leaves toys laying around in the yard all the time anyway?? Sidewalks are dangerous enough with their cracks and occasional unevenness.
... I know there's more, I'm just forgetting them.